flaws in a picture

so, the other day, i posted that i'm struggling
flake and i have been struggling
waiting to hear the news....
about how our lives would change....

so here is the picture
i've spent a lot of time looking at this picture...

do you see what is wrong with it?

no,
well,
take a closer look....

to the untrained eye...
it might be hard to see
but there is a flaw
a major flaw

here take a closer look

do you see it now?!?!

well, if not, maybe this will help....

now do you see the flaw?
i'm sure you do...
yep ...
something is in north carolina
and something is in texas....
but what?!?!


there, that picture is even more clear
do you see the flaw?!?!
i'm sure you do....but do you understand the flaw?
if you do, then maybe you can explain to me how it happened...
:/

so for the next year or so....

this will be my view of the world

flake got a job down in texas...
and i'm staying here in nc...
we have our responsible reasons why being apart is gonna be the right choice for us...
the company flake will be working for is going through restructuring....we want to make sure that the job is a sure thing before packing our lives up...and both heading down....
i already committed to being at my school through the end of next year....and i need to finish up my third year of teaching, in order to be fully licensed in nc...and hopefully making it easier to get a teaching job down in texas (however that is seeming quite hard...apparently they don't have a birth-kindergarten certification down in texas....but i have a year to figure this out!?!?!)
but i still have the right to feel sad about his being away from me...
you know, i kind of like him
and having him around isn't all that bad either :)

we've prayed about this
we know this is going to be hard
but we know HE would not give us something we could not handle...
either way....we (i) have come up with a few ways to make this next year go by a little quicker...
*flake will come back home once a month,
and i'll head down once a month (i've already told my principal i'll be taking a few days without pay each month...she didn't seem to mind too much)
*i've already picked out lots of jewlery that i feel like will make up for the fact that i don't get to see him, and his leaving will not be as hard with a nice new piece of jewlery to keep my mind off of things...
*to make up for a lack of pictures with my sweet cornflake....
i'll be taking this with me on all my adventures

and diesel might come too, since she can't be left out of adventures

struggling

i do not like the unknown
i dislike surprises
i am not good at waiting
so while my our future is up in the air,
i'm struggling
all i can think about is the unknown
all i can think about is timing
all i can think about is when

i'm so ready to know
when my our life will change
how my our life will change
if my our life will change

so
until then i WE need
prayers
for patience
and god's will
and peace of mind

and until i we know
what the future holds
i'm gonna do my best to remember

and kiss my flakes precious face
every chance i get
and thank god for how lucky i am to have flake
not to mention great family, friends, and faith that keeps me going.

may 17

the plans were made
the dress was bought
the suit was pressed
invitations were sent
flowers were delivered
decorations were out
the guests had arrived
the music had started
the ceremony happened
a kiss was exchanged
and two people became man and wife
two people who went on to live and laugh with each other for years to come
two people who were strong in faith and strong in love
two people who had a daughter who loved and adored them
two people whose daughter went on to marry and have children of her own
two people whose grandchildren grew to love and adore them like no other
two people who left a legacy of faith, love, and family, especially with their granddaughter,
who thought of no better way to honor them, their love, their life, and their memory
than to marry on their anniversary

happy 63rd anniversary grandmother and papa tom
happy 1st anniversary to my sweet precious flake

thank you bic

so what was i thinking.....
that lighters were just
something
that people used
and didn't seek to collect
for their special editions
silly me!

thank you bic
for setting me straight
never again will i question
why people buy lighters.....

but if you don't mind
could you help fill me in with
what on earth do two lighters have to do with each other?
and what on earth are they a special edition for?

measurment

i wait all year long for this day
i count down the days to this day
like i do to the 100th day of school
and like i do to the 180th day of school
(which happens to be 21 more days!!)

this is the day we make body cut outs!

this lesson is part of our measurment science kits....
we use these body cut outs for tons of things
we use them while we learn about units of measurement
(non-standard and standard)
we use them to talk about how we are alike and different
we use them to compare and contrast our own bodies

but the number one reason i love to use these body cut outs

is to laugh at how the kids see themselves!
:)

oh outside

this past week, my friends and i went on our very last field trip
for the kindergarten year
we spent the day exploring nature
at tanglewood park

we listened to stories about being in the woods and meadows
we listened to stories about using our senses
we listened for new sounds,
we looked at the clouds
we rolled in the grass
we learned that getting dirty wasn't too bad
we had fun looking at fish, trying to catch frogs, and capturing bugs
we had a blast....

then we got back on the bus
to head....
to the park!

where the kids played played played
until it was time to eat lunch....
and then played played played until they couldn't play anymore!

it was a super beautiful day
full of fun exploration
and learning!

happy mother's day!

happy mother's day!!!
to all the special women in my life,
who help me realize what an awesome job
being a mom is! :)

love to you all!!

stealing

i just stole this from randi
for some reason, i love these meme things....
so i just had to do it! :0)

what is your current obsession:
counting the number of days left in school!
24 more!! :)

whats your weirdest obsession:
i can't stand for my fingernails or toenails to have any white at the ends.....i HAVE to cut it off!

what are you wearing today:
i'm still in my pj's....i tend not to want to get dressed on days i am doing laundry!

what would you like to learn to do:
lots of things
html stuff
knit
photo editing
scrapbooking (both digital and for real)
clean ... and get rid of all the cat, dog, and l.o.v. hair.... (it is EVERYWHERE!!!!!!)
sew (so i could make curtains and cute stuff for my home)
paint my fingernails/toenails (you would think i could do such a thing, but NO luck!!)

last thing you bought:
prescriptions

what are you listening to:
the dryer and the ac

favorite weather:
NOT SUMMER!!!
i LOVE LOVE LOVE when it is cold!!!!
but could live for the rest of my life in 60 degree weather

most challenging goal right now:
giving all my worries to God!
and trusting Him to make the decisions for our future
:/

favorite guilty pleasure:
staying in bed all day and watching golden girls!
:)
those days don't come very often, but they are the best!!! :)

favorite vacation spot:
i do so love the beach and the mountains
but i'll be happy anywhere, as long as i can have time to relax

if you could go anywhere in the world right now for an hour, where would you go:
not too far away....
i would go to durham to see BBF
i miss her toooo much!

favorite thing about the city you live in:
it isn't too big, but has lots to do, and i've made some really good friends here

favorite piece of clothing you own:
pj pants and hoodie sweatshirts
:)

whats your dream job:
well, i want to teach (i guess i can check that off the list)
be a developmental specialist (and work with sweet precious babies!!)
and be a mommy (some day :))

describe your personal style:
i'm
easy going and ocd at the same time..
loud and quite at the same time...
outgoing and shy at the same time...
serious and funny at the same time...
brave and scared at the same time...

so i guess you can say....
i'm confused! :)

if you had to slap one person with no repercussions who would it be and why:
well, i have one person in mind,
however, i don't think i can say!
guess you will have to email me to find out!
ha!!

green is good

at school
we have a discipline chart that has colors...you know kind of like a stop light, but we use paws....and we have five colors
i despise the whole negative discipline thing....
but it is what it is...and i do it because i am told to....
but i honestly feel like the kids would get farther in life if we focused on the positives, and redirected the negative..... especially in kindergarten
and this is why i'm on the discipline committee,
and why i feel the need to give my granola (as my assistant principal describes my "hippie" ideas) approach to discipline but until change happens....we will continue with how the world is right now.....

each day, the children start on green,
and move through colors as consequences for their behaviors.
so green is good!
i do what i can to encourage the kids to stay on green (or scare them to do the right thing), and promised them at the beginning of the year an everybody on green paw party if we all could do the right thing for a number of days.....
our goal was 100 days, with every one on green!
i realized quickly that if we got to 50 days....that was going to be an accomplishment worth celebrating.....
so in april....
we finally did it!
50 days with EVERYONE on green!
i set out to find green things....
that could reward them for their behavior....
we had green apples,
green peeps
broccoli
celery
and apple grape juice in green boxes....

i was oh so excited for their accomplishments
AND
totally surprised that i had NO broccoli or celery left over!

friends

ever since i was a little girl,
since i was five, but close to six years old,
i have had four special friends
four friends who have never let me down
four friends who can always pick me up when i need a laugh
and, thanks to modern technology,
four friends who can always be there for me with the touch of a button!

as i look back on my relationship with them,
i wonder why my parents let me be friends with them
but then i realize, they were friends with them too!

but now, as our relationship continues
i am so thankful that i know these four ladies

rose, sophia, dorothy and blanche
thank you for being a friend!
i love their stories,
their sarcasm,
their singing,
their dreams,
i just love them!!!!!

so you can imagine, yesterday, i was so excited, as i always am, when i most favorite episode came on!
I LOVE LOVE LOVE when sophia sings....

god bless that sicilian woman!