struggling

i do not like the unknown
i dislike surprises
i am not good at waiting
so while my our future is up in the air,
i'm struggling
all i can think about is the unknown
all i can think about is timing
all i can think about is when

i'm so ready to know
when my our life will change
how my our life will change
if my our life will change

so
until then i WE need
prayers
for patience
and god's will
and peace of mind

and until i we know
what the future holds
i'm gonna do my best to remember

and kiss my flakes precious face
every chance i get
and thank god for how lucky i am to have flake
not to mention great family, friends, and faith that keeps me going.

she's my favorite!!

i love zoe!
the first time i ever heard her read
five little ducks

i was so hooked by her!
she is tooooo flipping cute!!

so for your viewing pleasure....
here are some of my favorite zoe videos
the lord's prayer


children obey your parents


i've got the joy joy joy


amazing grace


because he lives


i love you lord


there are so many more!
:)
i can't wait to see what she does next!

zoe's youtube page is....
http://www.youtube.com/user/zoeitoh

songs and love

before flake and i were....
us
we realized we loved listening to the same types of music....
:) just one more reason i thought....he was such a great friend for me! :)

one morning i realized that everytime i heard a certian song....
(a song that i had heard with flake, and talked with flake about, many times....)
i would think of flake
i didn't think too much of it at first,
but in the back of my mind,
i figured god was trying to tell me something....
on the day i put two and two together....
i decided to think about the words in this song by sister hazel

these words.....
got me thinking....
Finally I figured out
But it took a long, long time
But now there's a turnabout
Maybe 'cause I'm trying
There's been times, I'm so confused
All my roads, They lead to you
I just can't turn and walk away

it was not long after that day
that flake and i became
us --the dating us
and i never thought that another song
would make me smile and think of him
like the way that all for you did

until one day when i heard another sister hazel song
by this point
flake and i had already talked about
how we felt....
we knew that we did and said things....
with the other's best interest in mind
so the first time i heard .... this song
i was blown away....by the fact that
not only did i smile a bigger smile and think of flake more,
but i felt 10 times happier .... because my thoughts were now into words....
i knew that was exactly how i felt about flake

when it came time to talk about our wedding...
i sent my daddy a link to that same song....
i wanted him to hear it,
i wanted everone to hear it,
i wanted everyone to know and understand the way i felt about my dear sweet flake...
when my daddy replied, i never expected to think of that song....in any other way, except as the song that described how i felt about flake....
my daddy thought that not only was it a beautiful song about human love
but even better
it described the love that god gives us
the love that no matter what is there,
the love that we dream about,
the love that is bigger than us,
the love that keeps people going,
the love that can and continues to move mountains,
the love that leaves us all without doubt,
the love that fills us, when we most need it,
the love that is unmistakable,
the love that we can't get enough of

so now, each and every time i hear this kind of love
i smile an even bigger smile than i did the first time i heard it
and i thank god
again
for his love
and for the love of my family
and for sure, the love of flake!

happy valentine's day!

devotions....

when flake and i got married

my parents gave us a couple's devotional

being a preacher's kid

i kind of expected to get something like this....

and i was quite excited to receive it.....

i flipped through the book when we got it,

and thought....

"this is great.....

i can't wait to start reading it....

with my new hubby"

however

we realized quickly that the book was not the right one for us....

the very first time we sat down to read it

the topic was....talking with teens part 1

the next day....talking with teens part 2 ... about drinking

the next day....talking with teens part 3.... about sex

the next day....talking with teens part 4.... about drugs

the next day....what legacy are you leaving....what is in your will?!?!

the next day....the end of every man....words you would say at the end of your life

as i'm sure these are all great topics of conversation that flake and i will need to have

i honestly don't think these are the best ways to build on our newlywed faith foundation....

over the next few months,

i would look online for a good devotional that would fit us....

i had great luck in finding couple's devotionals

however got very frustrated at how specific they are....

i found devotionals for

newly dating couples,

pre-engaged couples,

couples with aging parents,

newly married couples over the age of 40

couples with children,

couples late and later married.....

yet....i struggled to find a newlywed devotional

so one night over dinner with flake's parents,

the devotional book conversation came up.....

and flake and i laughed as we talked with his parents about the devotions we came across.

a couple of days later, his parents gifted us with a different couple's devotional....

flakes mom told me that when they went to look for the book,

she asked the salesman at the christian bookstore to help her find a good devotional book for newlyweds....

the man handed her a good one,

as she looked through it....she realized it was not for newlywed people....but rather newly divorced people!

thankfully, flake's mom was able to find us a more appropriate devotional......

and we were able to put our original one on a shelf for a few more years :)

either way....
either book...
i'm so thankful god has a way of making him laugh...while thinking of him, and praising him!

prayers are needed

please join me in praying for baby harper
and her family

harper was born yesterday, with some serious health concerns
in less than 24 hours, because of prayer,
the doctor's serious concerns have started to look up.
through prayer, we can help make a difference for this little girl
and her family.
please pray for peace and understanding for her family
please pray for guidance and clear thoughts for her doctors
please pray for god's healing hand to touch harper

i know i can count on all of you! :)
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