Wednesday, May 27, 2009

flaws in a picture

so, the other day, i posted that i'm struggling
flake and i have been struggling
waiting to hear the news....
about how our lives would change....

so here is the picture
i've spent a lot of time looking at this picture...

do you see what is wrong with it?

no,
well,
take a closer look....

to the untrained eye...
it might be hard to see
but there is a flaw
a major flaw

here take a closer look

do you see it now?!?!

well, if not, maybe this will help....

now do you see the flaw?
i'm sure you do...
yep ...
something is in north carolina
and something is in texas....
but what?!?!


there, that picture is even more clear
do you see the flaw?!?!
i'm sure you do....but do you understand the flaw?
if you do, then maybe you can explain to me how it happened...
:/

so for the next year or so....

this will be my view of the world

flake got a job down in texas...
and i'm staying here in nc...
we have our responsible reasons why being apart is gonna be the right choice for us...
the company flake will be working for is going through restructuring....we want to make sure that the job is a sure thing before packing our lives up...and both heading down....
i already committed to being at my school through the end of next year....and i need to finish up my third year of teaching, in order to be fully licensed in nc...and hopefully making it easier to get a teaching job down in texas (however that is seeming quite hard...apparently they don't have a birth-kindergarten certification down in texas....but i have a year to figure this out!?!?!)
but i still have the right to feel sad about his being away from me...
you know, i kind of like him
and having him around isn't all that bad either :)

we've prayed about this
we know this is going to be hard
but we know HE would not give us something we could not handle...
either way....we (i) have come up with a few ways to make this next year go by a little quicker...
*flake will come back home once a month,
and i'll head down once a month (i've already told my principal i'll be taking a few days without pay each month...she didn't seem to mind too much)
*i've already picked out lots of jewlery that i feel like will make up for the fact that i don't get to see him, and his leaving will not be as hard with a nice new piece of jewlery to keep my mind off of things...
*to make up for a lack of pictures with my sweet cornflake....
i'll be taking this with me on all my adventures

and diesel might come too, since she can't be left out of adventures

12 comments:

Kristin said...

My heart hurts for you! I recently had to face the possibility of a similar issue ... a job offer in a state 1 day and 7 hours from my home would take me away from my family and my boyfriend for ... who knows how long.

A wonderful job that seemed an answer to prayer (in the "wrong" location, God! ;-) )vs. leaving the ones I love. I prayed. And prayed. And we prayed. And prayed.

And I stayed.

I can't imagine the challenges having to be apart from your hubby, and I don't know you -- just lurk on your blog -- but God and I will be talking about you. :-)

The Darling Dukes said...

ok, being the big sap that I am, I just shed a tear for you. I didn't know! I'm sure it will be super hard but you are so strong and it will fly by...hopefully! Please let me know what I can do! You can come visit us ANYTIME...HP isn't too far at all! I made it to Baptist in under 30min. yesterday!

Bobby and Brooke said...

I love you and I love how this blog is so you! You do such a good job of putting into words (and pictures) exactly what I know you're thinking/feeling!

As I've told you before, I'm worried about you and Flake so I will be praying for you more than normal. I'm also here if you need anything...too bad we're on a hiring freeze or I would move you here with me....

Randi Troxell said...

uuughh.. now im sad too lov! im with kristin, my heart actually hurts for you! i couldnt stand it but i totally think that you guys are being reasonable and brave.... you'll def be in my prayers too!

btw... you know you always got us... your bloggy friends too!

Just A Mom (Call me JAM for short) said...

Oh my! That's some big changes for you two. Stay focused on your reasons for doing it and always make sure you both have the same goals set. You are both still so young and have many, many years with each other. In the whole scheme of things this will be a small part of your lives together. My thoughts are with you that the transition goes smoothly!

Kristina P. said...

Oh, I am so sorry! I can't even imagine.

I will definitely stop bitching about my shift change that takes effect Monday, for the entire summer.

Danielle Banks said...

OH Leigh Anna, I'm so sorry to hear this, but even though it will be hard, I know you will be OK! Just think of all the fun you will have traveling!!! And on the positive side, you won't have to cook supper everynight!!! LOL

phyzz said...

We are wrapping you guys up tight in prayer. You are resilient & tender. Love prompts 'us' to remarkable things. Peace of Christ above you, around and within....

Upstatemomof3 said...

I spent a lot of time last night reading your blog and I am so sad that your husband and you will be seperated for such a long time. I know it makes "sense" but I can only imagine the hurt. My husband and I were living seperatly when we first started dating and that was hard but we were young - in college - and not married yet.
I will pray for you and your husband to find peace and joy in this new situation - even though that does not seem like it at the moment. God Bless.

Mrs. Goodneedle said...

No words can make the distance between you hurt any less, but I do know that this is the right decision for the right reasons; you'll come through this stronger and you won't take each other for granted! We're here for you and are praying for strength and resolve for you both through this time of transition and resettlement.

ModernMom said...

Hi there. New here but just had to comment. We narrowly avoided a very similar circumstance. I feel your pain. Hope this year flys by for you!

PS Super cute blog!

leslie ruth said...

Having dated and been engaged to my Texas sweetheart while I was in NC...I feel your pain. May I ask where in TX he will be? Your map dot looks eerily close to where we used to live. Just wondering!

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