Friday, October 15, 2010

a review

it really has been a year......
actually a year and 12 days since i last wrote on this blog
it wasn't meant to be that way,
it just happened.....
so what has happened over the past year in the life of l.o.v. and flake.....
i know you are dying to here is a month by month break down!

in september, i wrote this post
it wasn't until october that i found out why i was sick as a dog
and it had something to do with two little babies growing inside me!
yep, flake and i found out we were pregnant,
then we found out we were pregnant with twins
then we found out we may be loosing one of the twins,
but the doctors weren't so sure.....
so they had us wait

november 10th came
we found out for sure
it wasn't our time to be parents
we were broken, sad, yet faithful.
november 11th was the day they took the twins
it was a hard hard day
a day i never ever wanted to relive
a day i just wanted to skip on the calendar from that moment on
thanksgiving came, i struggled to be thankful

emotionally, physically,
things were looking up for both of us.
i got new mittens and mismatched socks,
it helped to make life more colorful and fun!
flake had started a business back in the fall,
and he was making lots of contacts.
i was starting to understand how it felt to be normal again.
we gave gifts to 14 sweet, amazing, needy children at my school.
and all seemed right with the world.
we were thankful for the year we had, we were thankful for the good, the bad, and all the trials that we had, that made us stronger and more ready for a new year!

happy new year
happy new month
happy new pregnancy
yep, found out we were pregnant again
nope didn't feel like it was too early!
totally excited!
and then.....
it happened again!
sad, scared, frustrated.....yet faithful!
it wasn't the way i would have started a brand new year,
but it was meant to be!
we had lots of snow,
which means lots of snow days
and lots of mornings at ihop,
cause you know if it snows, you have to eat at ihop!

ahh...the month of love
things are good
well, flake has realized his business isn't working
let's just say.....the economy.....well, isn't the greatest!
like that was news!
twizzlers make me happy!
looking for a job keeps flake busy!
even more snow, even more ihop!

school is keeping me busy.
flake started a new job.
i got sick....and had a weird pain....
headed to the doctor....
you guessed it....PREGNANT....
and at 4weeks 2days pregnant, we saw a perfectly formed, perfectly placed sac via ultrasound.
but.....the pain, was from a cyst that was trying to support the pregnancy, since my body wasn't telling my body to do that.....
got on meds, and saved this baby!
this due....november 11th....the same day, a year later, that i didn't want to remember. it is god's timing!
it is god's way of making that day a special day!
on march 24, we heard our baby's heartbeat.
this was the first time we had that experience.....
it was AMAZING!
we had a healthy baby,
and we were in love!
we started calling the baby pickle
and all was right with the world!

flake was enjoying his new job.
school was going well for me.
our parents knew we were having a baby.
we found out flake's sister was having a baby too.
how exciting!
we bought a house
and moved out of the apartment
which sadly had turned into the ghetto before our eyes.
turbo moved to a farm.
all was PERFECT!
spring was here,
birds were singing
flake had an awesome month at work
(he is in i learned the hard way every month isn't the same!)
my little friends at school were growing and learning so much
and all seemed right with the world.
the end of the school year approached
and my little pickle was growing.
my grandmother got even more sick.
my world started to change before my eyes.
i realized that she would not be here for the rest of my life.
i realized that she might not be here for my child's life.
i realized she would be better off in heaven than here on earth, but i was selfish and not ready for her to leave.
i learned my bestest friend was expecting a baby too!
good....bad.....such is life!

we remembered our babies that should have been born.
we miss them......but we are thankful for our pickle
the end of the school year....
field day
got a call at school that shook my world
pickle's quad screening came back abnormal.
pickle might have a neural tube defect.
ultrasound to make sure
pickle .... barley moved
90 minutes later, we still didn't know if our baby was ok,
90 minutes of looking but not being sure
90 minutes of learning we had a very very stubborn child!
(pickle totally gets that from me!)
another appointment scheduled,
we found out NO neural tube defect
and we were having a BOY!
god was with us!

a month of travel .....
headed to the mountains with great friends
headed to the beach to visit my best friend (who is pregnant)
headed to the outer banks for my brother's wedding (yes to the same bride he married the year before!)
all was perfect!
our baby was growing.
flake had an ok month at far not the greatest!
my grandmother was doing ok, still holding on.
and summer break was going great....HOT but great!
found out that my best friend's pregnancy is going well, her baby isn't surrounded by any fluid, and the doctors think she may loose her baby! i'm sad for her, i'm broken for her, and i want to fix it! i ask everyone i know to pray for her and her precious baby!

flake is still working hard.
sales are going well, but hopeful things will get better.
work starts back for me.
i'm very big....
and quite uncomfortable....
having lots of contractions....and bleeding, but the doctors think pickle is still perfect!
we had our first baby shower, and showered we were.
pickle got lots and lots of great things!
we got to see and spend lots of time with my grandmother.
god is great for allowing her to still be with us.
my best friend's baby is still hanging on, despite what the doctors have thought.
flake turns 30.
it was a great......HOT..... month!

happy labor day.
happy birthday to me.
happy baby shower.
work is going.....
grandmother is still holding on.
best friend's baby ..... still holding on.
pickle is growing, in fact he is measuring big (3 weeks big to be exact!)
doctor signed me out of work.
at 33 weeks.....i still am nauseous every day, vomit a lot (but not daily anymore), struggle to sleep, and struggle to keep my kidneys balanced, not to mention dealing with contractions/bleeding....but all in all, my pregnancy is perfect.
i continue to ask everyone i know to pray for my best friend's baby!
flake is working....all the time!
we thought about our baby we lost, but we were thankful for our pickle.
and here we are....a year later.
flake's sister had her baby, a month early
the precious little girl she brought into the world is a prefect mix of her and her husband!
our precious nephew is dealing with his new status of brother.
flake works....ALL THE TIME!!! (could it be that i'm home all the time, and just miss him, probably?!)
my grandmother is still holding on.
i'm still very VERY pregnant!
my best friend delivered her baby 2 months early
i spend my days off of work, updating the masses of how the miracle baby is doing.
the same baby who the doctors said would not make it through delivery is 5 days old. the same baby that the doctors said would never ever develop lungs, has some holes in her lung tissue, but it is able to heal, as long as she remains stable.
i sit and wait to meet my pickle.
impatiently.....but i sit and wait!
and that is what brought me to blogger again.
i've missed you all!
i've missed the community of friends!
i don't promise to be a good blogger....but i'm back.....


Kristina P. said...

Wow, this is crazy! I haven't been on FB very much, so I was unaware of all the drama. I did know you were pregnant. Yay!

Bobby and Brooke said...

HOORAY for your return and I love a year where God is sprinkled in every area of your life! LOVE YOU!

Mrs. Goodneedle said...

We are all very eager and happy to meet your little Pickle. Wow, what a year~ God is so good!! :)

Amethyst Moon said...

I was scrolling through my blogs and I thought "OMG she's back?! when dis she get back?! and where has she been?!" and then I read, and I teared up and felt your pain, and then your joy! I am so happy for you! And I now know why periodically i would think of you, and I'm sure it was at the times when you needed positive energy sent your way, for everything happens for a reason!
I'm glad you're back, even if it isn't regular, it's nice to know you're...okay.